I had an epiphany the other day- I couldn’t take my life any more. I mean, not in the sense where I can’t embrace the reality that I live in- well, maybe my reality is slightly different than others, maybe we all live in our own realities….no Jon, this is not a philosophy blog- get back on track.
Okay, so I have been studying art forever, over fifteen years, and I have always wanted to be a professional illustrator but the opportunity never presented itself. I blamed everything- society, America, lack of opportunity, the art industry, myself, it didn’t matter. In the end it was deeper than that- I was sick and needed to get treatment- because when you got a condition you need to take your medicine. It got to the point where I could continue in the direction of becoming a working class man and use my body at an hourly rate to make a living- this was the solid option, the safest- or change my path and take a chance on achieving my dreams. I knew that I would never be happy in a 9 to 5 job and I spent too much time studying art and practicing my craft to simply give up.
And it was as simple as that. Continue with the day job and crush my soul underneath the weight of conformity and monotony or take the risk and project myself into the life I want. Sure, it is a high-risk/ high-reward kind of situation but to be honest, if I don’t do this and become the artist that I want to be I won’t have many reasons to go on living. Now I know that sounds depressing but because of my condition I can’t help but go into dark places and when you got a condition, you gotta take your medicine.
Now I am not just spinning my wheels here, I have organized all my work, completed my portfolio, written an artist statement, created a website, revamped my social media pages, studied marketing strategies, learned how to utilize social media, completed all my previous projects and I am ready to launch a web comic soon that is also turned into a podcast. I still have a long way to go but I have renewed confidence that I can embrace the challenges ahead.
It’ll take a while to get to where I want to be so I need to focus on exposure and creating a fan base. In that way I can start making some serious headway on generating a comfortable living wage.